Stupid Relationships

Lately the boyfriend has been a complete grump. All he does is moan and grump at me, or go completely weird. Take Saturday for example, we went out for his friend's birthday and all night he ignored me, hardly talking to me and taking photos of everyone bar me. It really hurt especially after I booked a table at a restaurant for him, his friends and I as a surprise for him to try and cheer him up.

So every time I spoke to him he practically blanked me until one of his friends told me that he used to fancy me in year 2 - when I was 6!! It was just a really upsetting night, I mean who goes out to be blanked by their boyfriend? Not me for definite! In the end we spoke about how he's been lately and how I haven't felt like I was his 'girlfriend' for ages just a friend that he sees a lot.

He was all apologetic and saying how he'd be different and that he knew he was being weird but that he didn't know how it had affected me...this was Saturday. Tuesday comes and he gets grumpy, ignores me to play on his phone all night - and steal my laptop for a bit - is completely weird, so much that my mum notices, then leaves early when he can see he's upset me. Sometimes I wish this 'change' was real!

Why do people say they'll do something differently if they have no intention to...I wouldn't mind if he admitted it and said he doubted he could change it...but the lie, that cuts.

Up and Down

Things with the boyfriend are all up and down at the moment. He keeps complaining how tired he gets, but then won't go to sleep and then gets grumpy...but only towards the boy and I. I've asked him what's wrong and if we're okay and he just gets snappy and tells me that everything is okay.

We're supposed to be spending the evening tomorrow..or tonight but I'm not sure if I want to. Not just because of his grumpy slump at the moment, but because every "special" day we have together, (anniversaries, christmas.) he manages to ruin it by having a go/ snapping/ starting an argument/ making me cry. I'm just really worried that we may go into the New Year with us in a mood with each other.

Other than that everything else is on the up. My family are all well again, which is a plus. The boy is getting much better at sitting up with support but still prefers to stand, which is such a great thing to see him do. It's truly amazing how much he's grown already, I really can't wait. It's so exciting.

The christmas break is nearly over and I'm nearly back in school. YAY! It should be fun, I just hope that the children and too hyperactive, they were bad enough before.

T.C. Sunshine and Moonlight xx